New Life

I am planning to change the name of my Blogger page to " Sound of Naina" - my sweet bundle of joy, she lighted our life on 23rd Mar 2011. Ever since that day- infact much before that my life was just playing one sound and that was hers :)
I am not unique, it happens with every mom..from the day you conceive you just start behaving so differently. I remember simple things I could never get into my lifestyle- all of that came so naturally to me . For eg. drinking 8-12 glass of water, having milk, medicines on time ....and the list is endless.
I had followed all things to the book - line by line. But still I and my baby had to face issues. So one suggestion that I can give to all expecting mothers is...what is most important is staying happy. Carrying a baby is indeed a responsible activity but not so much that you are always under pressure and move away from life. Remember you are nurturing a life within you- and that cannot happen best till you live yourself.
Every phase of pregnancy is a beautiful phase. First phase is the toughest in my view. As you reach in it with just one discovery . Its a new feeling , new life, new responsibility that you have to cope with. To add to it , your health doesn't support at times. But the good part is all the attention and caring you get from your loved ones- husband, mother in law, friends, family. By the second trimester you have got used to the feeling and the idea has slowly settled in . Its your normal life with the additional joy of carrying. In the last trimester when it gets tough to move around or go out often, its a wonderful feeling to feel the movement of your baby inside. The priceless moments you and your partner spends feeling and talking to the baby are so beautiful. I spoke a lot to my daughter in that term- I still have to see the impact of it on her :)
I wrote a lot also during that time. Those one can call " Notes to my Baby" I wanted my child to feel a part of the journey we had.
Being the hyper me...I gathered so much of information about everything related to pregnancy and babies that I am a mini encyclopedia myself now :)

Wishes and GOD

I wonder how are wish's granted by GOD?? We ask it and thus we get it or it is destined for us to get and thus we get it.
Does that mean by our pleading and asking for some blessing it doesn't have an impact ?
My mom used to tell me if I be a bad girl God will punish me and take away my blessings.
This is further strange - by doing wrong blessings can be taken away then by doing good why they cant be added?? May be they are - who knows ? We human beings cant comment on this.

Kabhi aisa hua hai that you are standing in a temple and praying something and a strange feeling tells you that the prayer has been heard and wish granted. What an amazing feeling it is!!!
Mere saath as always ismein bhi "pachka" hua- One upon a time I was praying in a very crowded temple right outside the main idol. Like in our hindi films koi phool nahi gira but the pujari in between all people there, choose me and gave me a " puja ki chunari ". Can't tell you how blessed I felt, bass jis cheez ko mangne ayi thi woh puri ho he jayegi aisa vishwaas ho gaya mujhe. Par hua kya ??- NOTHING.
I didntot get what I had wished for. I wonder what that blessing was for or whether it was just a mere coincidence?
Basically the point remains how to get wish granted from GOD ? People spend hours in pleasing GOD - but does it really matter.
You are here in this world just do your bit and leave the rest . Jo hona hota hai akhir wahi hota hai

Expressing emotions!!

Returning back to my blog after years and was thinking what to start with? What a topic my mind picked up- Tears!! No super logic to it- may be this is top of the mind topic I have been thinking about

My mother called me this morning and I missed it as I was busy with some other work. Her call came again within 15 mins- left me thinking what has happened? The moment I picked up the call, the voice on other side was so worried. Last night I complaint of pain in my hand to her, she was worried for it and wanted to inquire about my well- being and wanted to come and see me. I was like " maa its ok, its not a major thing- I'll be ok. Dont trouble yourself , no need to come.
She started crying, saying its been 21 days she saw me and was missing me , hence wanted to see me. Pain was just a reason. I consoled her , and said " aa- jao"
Kept staring at my handset for few mins, before I could continue my work

What do tears signify ???
Happiness, helplessness, anger, love, sympathy.......they basically reflect extreme emotions! Like for my mother and almost all mothers its love for their kids.
But this form of expression is limited to few- so do others dont get these emotions ???

What is it then??
Are tears reflection of ones's weakness- when you cant express your emotions by any other mode, u cry!!
Crying is good at times, it washes away whatever negative is stored in you. But as excess of everything is bad - this holds true with tears as well

The silence , the vacuum, the loneliness inside people many a times find its way out in form of tears.

But what about fake tears- " crocodile tears "as many call them . Getting tears is it so easy? I always feel tears come from inside and one has no control over it .

Whatever it is - for me tears are most pure form of expressing emotions and one needs to respect it at all times!!

Random thot

Its been almost two days since i havent worked much in office...not that i have done something great outside office either . God knows whats wrong, how can once spend the entire day infront of the TP doing nothing, just staring at work getting piled up. M jus not able to gather myself to put my energies into it- or may be my mind is pre-occupied, or may be I dont like what I have to do, or may be I am jus mad , who loves cribbing???

i just hope this phase ends soon, i hate not to work with my heart into it.

Dhoondte reh jaaoge !!

When I joined this corporate world in June'06 I was super excited. I was so self motivated that I did any and every work that came my way....and that too without any expectations!! People around me did took un-due advantage of this and gave me thr share of work as well..but I never realised....I mean I thot its my work and have to do it. My story is not unique, most freshers do come with this attitude.
But over years...why does it get washed away? Why does the enthusiasm ends? After few initial years we start getting into questions like - why do i work? what will I get? Why am I only asked everytime to do extra work?

Few probable reasons can be :
- The world is different from our imagination. We see all sorts of harsh corporate truths around - favor ism, biased bosses, no growth ( despite of hard work) , chamchas , etc. All these things kill the freshness/ motivation in an individual.
- Over the years people feel they are not getting right share of thr contribution- either in monetary terms or higher/better position/ opportunity
- People get content with whatever they have . The drive to achieve gets missing.
- People just want to project themselves as a " top Performer" initially to make a place for them , and once they get this they get to thr normal self.

I have thought of few things that can help in retaining the motivation :
- Always look at people lower than your level - ths is not a very good approach for Long Term growth . But by looking a your juniors you feel better in comparative sense
- Talk to people who like the role you are doing or who are interested in your area. This will make you feel good about your work
- For Females ( Wear new clothes to office - that in itself is a very big motivator to be in office )
That's all I can think of right now. Unfortunately for bosses and other corporate stuff i cudn't think of a solution.

Happy Working Friends- lets go on !!

Zara Socho

Imagine a scenario, where your worked for a client presentation. On the D-day the presentation goes very well, and the client is really happy with you. So happy that infront of other board members he gives you a tip of Rs.500 saying he loved your presentation. Your reaction???? How will you react?

Well if can take the liberty of speaking on behalf of most of us, i will feel isnsulted. Coz wat we used to is appreciation coming our way in a professional manner- by an award, by appreciation mail, by promotion etc. Not by handing over a TIP!!!
We do our job like a professional and expect same amount of professionalism from others., and by giving a tip we feel insulted

If we all agree to the above view, then why many of us land up giving tips to artists and in the process unknowingly insulting the artist??
Incase people are wondering where has this come from? here is the background-
I went to a grand resturant for dinner with family. Here there was a group of musician playing instuments like- sitar, tabla, and santoor. No doubt they were awesome, they just put life in the quite environment., They were so good that no one was talking all were peacefully enjoying the music. All was fine..until one mad man took my attention, where he just stood up n slipped a 500 ko note to the group. He was crazy, i cant forget the expression on the lead musicians face. He was by no way pleased to have the tip, he was annoyed.

This is wat triggered this post.
Why cant we respect people for their jobs, why do we have to neccesarily have to give a tip to show our praise. People might feel great with the thought of helping them by extending monetary help , but please do realise in the process you land up hurting poor man's sentiments.
These musicians etc are employeed with the hotel, they get their salaries. Why do we have to give them a tip??
I am sure their must be a different school of thought to my opinion as well, but my dear friends this is wat i feel. And I wish , that ugly man some days gets tip from his boss, so that he gets a taste of his own medicine.

Why?? and when??

There is so much running in my mind, that I don’t really know what to do? It’s been a long time, I had a sound sleep. People ask me , am I sad?? But my question is, is not being happy the only reason for not being at peace? There is a constant fight going on inside, fight of thoughts, fight of views. These internal fights are amazing , as you never seem to have the privilege of victory.
I wish I could speak my heart out to someone, but I feel it will not make sense. I feel I should write it down , but again am not able to hold myself for long doing it. I sincerely want to do so much, but just cant. People say thought is important, how come in actual life actions become more important than thought??

I can spend hours thinking about life, but can life spend a minute thinking about me????