Why?? and when??

There is so much running in my mind, that I don’t really know what to do? It’s been a long time, I had a sound sleep. People ask me , am I sad?? But my question is, is not being happy the only reason for not being at peace? There is a constant fight going on inside, fight of thoughts, fight of views. These internal fights are amazing , as you never seem to have the privilege of victory.
I wish I could speak my heart out to someone, but I feel it will not make sense. I feel I should write it down , but again am not able to hold myself for long doing it. I sincerely want to do so much, but just cant. People say thought is important, how come in actual life actions become more important than thought??

I can spend hours thinking about life, but can life spend a minute thinking about me????