Since childhood, Break as a word and concept has been very
close to my heart. Till the time I was a student this word “ break “ had
special powers to make me smile just at the thought of it. I am still carrying
its love with me – in form of love handles and atleast extra 10 kgs around
my tummy.
During the growing up years , I frequently entered war
zones with myself. Troubled with questions , clarity of thought . Questions
like “ who am I ? “ what am I here to do “ “ how can I add value” these
questions come only to very great people , so I didn’t get either of them. My
problems were “ Why is my mother not increasing my pocket money” “ why cant I
go on a trip or late night parties “ “ when will I have a boyfriend ? “ Those
war zones always lead me to a silent break
me time ; where I used to keep
talking to myself , GOD and keep presenting my case both as a
defence lawyer and public prosecutor. The real twist was – I was playing the
judge too .
But this always worked for me , I always landed up getting
clarity and feeling better – for the next few weeks at least.
As I graduated out of college, and entered into the new
world and the REAL world I often found myself lost . Lost not because I don’t know
what to do, lost because there was so much to do all alone. When you enter the
professional world, one has little idea what to expect. We are just bubbles of
energy flowing around in the office atmosphere. I wasn’t clear what I want to
be 10 years from then, so I decided to give my 100% to everything I do. Crazy work load, but I was loving every bit of
it. This was also the time I met my Mr.right. So when I met Mr. Right – things immediately clicked, we were like
long lost friends. We together would be on phone almost always ( No wonder Airtel was doing so well then )
And when all was going well, I asked for a break from Mr,
Right too. Reason- all was too good to be true , maybe we have just got used to
each other , our being together was a result of our boredom, or lack of options
in the otherwise boring office. So let’s call splits, and see what it is for
real. It was almost a 10 month long break, we had just basic contact during
this time and yo ho it worked “ I got the clarity and the conviction that this
was true “ and mr right realized that he loved me madly , because even with the most weird ask he didn’t
killed me and waited for that long.
Break in life is very important and after my few successful ventures
at it , I have been suggesting this to lot of my friends and family. No one
really agrees with me, but I still continue as I feel its my Karma to enlighten
humanity :)
When I became a mother , In my entire family ( including
distant relatives as well) I was the first one to invent break from child
concept. I was looked down upon by my own mother . She was so apologetic to inculcate
such “ sanskaars “ in me. But still I went for my alone trips to my friend’s
place for short durations. Those short breaks worked wonders, as I used to love
my child and my motherly duties more after them.
Our mind and body very quickly goes into a routine and if
the routine is not broken once in a while, we get the constant itchy feeling.
80% of the people live with this itch and subside the inner voice . 20% like me
take time to listen and amend accordingly. (the numbers are not based on any statistical research ) Like regular
servicing for vehicles is required, life need servicing too. People across
ages, professions should think about it. Life is to live and not just survive.
Listen to yourself, we all need fuel and timely servicing to
go on and LIVE.
P.S_ Duration of the
break may vary from individual to individual. It can range for few hours to a
few years.
